Mrs.Smith&Jim... we love you!

okay so i know that there are people
way closer to them than i was but
they left an impact on just about every
single person that they met....

Mrs. Mama Smith :)
one of the most amazing people that ever came on the earth.
Every single hylton concert she greeted me with
"hello there miss brown" and gave me a huge hug.
I saw her on tuesday and i even took a picture of her.
it seems inmposible that she could be gone.
SHE'S LEFT A LEGACY!
evey person that she's met
with her kindness and willingness
to serve has seen a great example
every time we follow her example
she lives on in all of our hearts and
in the hearts of those we reach out to.
She was loved my the choir kids,their parents,
and all their families. SHe has made a difference.
Now she is literally Sky Big smiling
down on us all :D we love you!

Jim Smith :)
i never really knew him too well.
except for that he was a greeat friend to
my brother and we taled occasionally
backstage at music man. he made people
smile and laugh in every reformance
and theres been a study that says
that good actions can carry on for years
(like if i were to smile at someone
and it made their day better so they smiled
at someone and it made goodthings happen)
imagine with all the funny and good things
he's done he's going to have an impact on the
earth forever.. every time you think of him
think of him with a smile and keep the difference
he'e made in the world going.

they were amazing people.
if we all made one small effort to
be more like them the world
would be a better place.

lives have changed.
examples are set.
and memories were made.
Thank you both.
We are probably going to have heartache
for awhile with sadness and tears.
But soon when we think back to
you we'll do it with smiles. :D



i'll always be sad they are gone.
but i'm going to try to be happy i knew them.
and try to live like they did.



ps i was having a really hard time accepting this
until I really wrote this down. try it. now i think
i can probably smile at the memories instead of crying
about the fact that they are gone.

seriously???e

played outisde for a while
we were having fun...
but then it got retarded
same as it always does
well no actually that kid
got retarded same as he always
does... maybe hes what happened to us?

i don't know why I always get
my hopes up that things will
be better. i know it can't
be like it used to but I sure
as heck don't like how it is now :/

why do friendships have to change?
why can't things just stay the same
how am I supposed to feel
knowing what once was
is no longer even real?

grr this sucks :(

weekends!!! :D

are one of my favorite things
I love them so much...

the abilitly to go to sleep late
and wake up and then being
able to actually fall back asleep
is the best pretty much ever :D

I've decided that if someone gets
mad at me for being friends with
someone that they don't like they
are retarded because I think that
I want to be friends with everyone :P

also my k key randomly doesn't work
unless you hit it kinda hardish :D
so you may have to imagine them in some place!

Jessica is being dumb... she's kicking me
off the computer and she blames me for
losing her memory card but whatever...
her fault not goign to lie.... :/

Tessa just asked Ben if he showered
with his shoes on... and Bytheway (John)

I have been reading harry potter and
the i am rereading the host :D

Thanksgiving!

so let's start with yesterday night:

i was cleaning the kitchen then
hanging out with ben... it was so fun :D

then my mom got mad at me for
not cleaning the appliances... (stove,
fridge, microwave, ect.) so then i
started cleaning the stove...
but my mom had just turned it off.
so i picked up a rack to wash...

and got a 2nd degree burn D:

Today:
it still really hurts
but I am thankful
that we learned at
girls camp about what to
do like don't put burn
creams on it and stuff :D

also i really want to have a sleepover!

you think I'd learn...

that I shouldn't procrastinate
things so much :/

yeah so I have a project
due at school tommorow

haven't started it
and I left the papers
at school... darn it!

ugh....

also went to Wonka yesterday
liked the show a whole bunch
but the kids that sat in front of
us got on my nerves...
i asked them not to talk during
the show and the one was saying
how they were whispering and
i told them it was still really rude
and they were being retarded! grr.

also the one blonde kid was like hey where
are those hot girls we saw earlier and then
they were all there they are! blahblahblah
we have to be discrete about this... and I
was sitting there think wow good luck with
that... these are kids who are my age acting
like a bunch of 5th or 6th graders.. ugh!

but yeah don't be annoying at preformances... it's rude

Random Ramblings

so recently i was thinking about this time at church
where we were doing friendship basket and
Rachel had found a candle scented
sexy guy smell it smelled like ax
and we all thought it was silly
and the other day i smelt something
and I thought to myself....
this kid has a sexy guy smell :D

it made me want to laugh...

today I gave notes to a bunch of people
it was so much fun... i want to do it again :)

i've decided some of the best people
are the ones it seems like nobody knows
the ones who make a difference not because
they want everyone to notice how amazing
they are but because it's the right thing
to do... i want to be friends to these people
they need to know how awesome they are :]

also the other day this kid walked up for a hug...
i have no idea why and I know that he asked a
few of my other friends but it still made me happy :T

so in PE the past 2 days we've played basketball
i miss most of them but I still make a few (3 pointers)
I've decided I should really find my glasses so I can start
to make more... and so i can pracice for this season.

I've decided it's gay to be all guy obsessed and that
they are not all dumb and stupid and they can be
great friends... I've always wanted a guys bestfriend
just because I think that guys and girls are
both better at some things then the others are.
girls are fun to get excited and do dumb things with. but
guys are fun to talk to and laugh with :D

i've also decided that this week on the week that
the VT Massacre Happened I'm going to wear
VT outfits everyday it will be amazing :D

so yeah this concludes your little peek into my mind this evening :D

oh the moments i love...

i just love it when I am on a total

emotional high... right now i feel beautiful :)

i don't care what anybody else thinks

life never ceases to amaze me!

Technology the Ultimate Super Villan....

So I'm writing an essay about whether I think technology has a positive or negative influence on our lives.

I'm writing about the negative influences.

My paper is going to be pretty much amazing :)

I'll post it when I'm done.

All County Chorus :)

I get to go!

Today I got la musica!

It is fatastic!

I've been listening since I got home.

Everlating Melody is my favorite for now... :)

also lots of my music Ben sang at one point.

I feel so strange...

like the world is just spinning around me.
it's a really lame feeling.

I feel like I have no friends.
...or at least very few.

I mean I know I have friends
but with vlasses being the way
that they are we are pretty much
never together so it feels like we're
drifting apart. I strongly dislike that.

ugh. also I miss Carly.
We have so few opputuinities
to be together.

I really took summer for granted.

School pretty much stinks in general.

Inspired....

Well once someone told me they thought I would be great at blogging....

then I forgot about it...

then I read Ben-o's blog and decided that I could do this so easily...
I always have things I just need to say and I don't care wether anyone wil ever listen.


so yeah this should be awesome :)


also Ben makes fun of me because I always make typing errors...

this should be good practice!